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[06 Mar 2006|09:51pm] having time to sit back and remember why i fell in love with him in the first place has been wonderful and was much needed. everything is so confusing lately- life in general. i'm not going to be a teenager anymore when september comes but when am i going to stop feeling/acting like one? $@%#%$#@#$

[27 Feb 2006|08:42pm] i've forgotten everything that i used to be about, everything i used to love. i don't understand why i wasted so much time here at this house. a friendship is impossible and i don't know what i'm doing here. maybe i'm scared to go out and do anything real. i know that i'm afraid of having this happen again... being involved in another train wreck. i should have listened to everyone a long time ago. everyone that loves me says that i should run away as fast as i can but i'm still sitting here even though we've been broken up for almost a week now. i'm clinging on to him because i'm afraid of going out and finding something new. for all i know the next person i get involved with could be a serial killer. knowing my luck, it'll probably happen. $@%#%$#@#$

[31 Oct 2005|02:00pm] the L word is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me $@%#%$#@#$

[06 Aug 2005|12:02am] seth neas is the most lovely boy ever. 1 <> $@%#%$#@#$

[05 Apr 2005|11:39am] TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: jessica lauren Birthday: september first Birthplace: winter haven, florida Current Location: lakeland, florida Eye Color: brown Hair Color: brown Height: 5'9" Right Handed or Left Handed: right Your Heritage: belgian/russian for the most part The Shoes You Wore Today: flip flops Your Weakness: i like brownies Your Fears: dying alone... dying in general Your Perfect Pizza: cheese Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get engaged Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: haha Thoughts First Waking Up: seth neas <3<3<3 Your Best Physical Feature: eyes/tits? Your Bedtime: whenever Your Most Missed Memory: being little Pepsi or Coke: diet coke MacDonalds or Burger King: taco bell Single or Group Dates: single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee Do you Smoke: yes Do you Swear: yes Do you Sing: in the car Do you Shower Daily: pretty much Have you Been in Love: yes Do you want to go to College: not really but i am Do you want to get Married: yes because i am gay Do you belive in yourself: sometimes Do you get Motion Sickness: yes Do you think you are Attractive: kinda Are you a Health Freak: no Do you get along with your Parents: with my mom Do you like Thunderstorms: not really Do you play an Instrument: piano In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah In the past month have you Smoked: yeah In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope In the past month have you gone on a Date: i've been with seth for seven months In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yep In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope In the past month have you eaten Sushi: nope In the past month have you been on Stage: nope In the past month have you been Dumped: yep! In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope Ever been Drunk: yep Ever been called a Tease: haha yeah Ever been Beaten up: nope Ever Shoplifted: yeah How do you want to Die: in my sleep What do you want to be when you Grow Up: writer What country would you most like to Visit: france In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: hazel Favourite Hair Color: dark Short or Long Hair: longish Height: taller than me Weight: skinny Best Clothing Style: seth's Number of Drugs I have taken: three Number of CDs I own: a lot Number of Piercings: three Number of Tattoos: none Number of things in my Past I Regret: taking seth neas for granted CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! $@%#%$#@#$

[02 Mar 2005|09:11pm] sonnie tell your brother that i love him. 2 <> $@%#%$#@#$

[02 Mar 2005|01:52pm] [ mood | morose ] this is the worst pain i've ever felt in my life. i want(ed) to spend the rest of my life with you. you completely broke my heart. $@%#%$#@#$

[09 Jan 2005|04:08am] i just need to let it go. $@%#%$#@#$

[17 Dec 2004|01:17am] he makes me so happy. $@%#%$#@#$

[07 Dec 2004|11:11am] i miss my best friend. $@%#%$#@#$

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